Monday 5 November 2007

Miss Denial Has Left The Building


Well..... I rang Dr Tony's (aka Dr Fill) mobile this morning at 8.15 and it was answered by his lovely wife who I apologised to 50 times for disturbing her at home, when I got to talk to Tony he organised to meet me in at Newcastle skin cancer Clinic at Broadmeadow where he works a couple of days a week as a skin cancer specialist (go figure he is also doing lap bands). Anyway we arranged to meet at 9.30am and I had just assumed he was working today, so trotted on in to see him.

The poor fella pops in in jeans and a footy jumper, it appears its his day off but he only lives 5 minutes away and when he heard I needed him was happy to meet up there (god bless his soul) I was so grateful, but embarrassed at the same time, but all was good.

I explained what had been happening (sausage drama and all) and that I was way too restricted and throwing up and having reflux and he was just truly so lovely to me.... compassionate, understanding and didn't once have a go at me. I suggested he take 0.3mls but he talked me into 0.5mls, saying that the recovery time would be lessened by less restriction , and that in a few weeks if I really needed it back he would do it (what more could you ask for !!!!)

I popped up on the bed bared the belly and he actually drew out 5mls into the syringe and held it out for about 10-12minutes while he chatted to me saying it would help as it gave the stomach a rest from the pressure. I Signed the forms, thanked him again from the bottom of my heart and was on my merry way.

On my way into see him that morning I literally forced 70mls of apple juice down and every sip felt like it stayed in the back of my throat. About 2.5 hrs after the fill was taken out I managed to drink a whole 600mls of water over a period of 15-20 min and boy was it great. Straight away I knew I had done the right thing...... Miss Denial had left the building !!!!!!

I actually ate KFC potato and gravy for lunch and FUCK was it A-M-A-Z-I-N-G !!!!!!! I had about half a cup full and felt the carbs pumping around my body immediately. It was just what I needed. I enjoyed it so much, and boy am I looking forward to dinner. Not eating is shit.... it truly does your head in.

I Vow to be less restricted and eat better, even if that means slower weight loss, I will do it the healthy way. No use being skinny if you feel like death and haven't the energy to get your skinny arse off the damn lounge now is it ??????

Keep you posted

Cheers
Tarn xxxxx

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Gawd it's a journey isn't it Tarn. We all want our weight off like yesterday but still need to keep that realistic view and expectations.We have 1-2 years to get rid of the weight and your nearly halfway with your weight loss aren't you. You'll piss it in don't worry. Glad to see you listening to your body. Nice also to see the BMI and weight going down. Amazingly with summer around the corner that need to eat usually diminishes with more water intake. You'll do well sweetie.

Take care
Jules