Restricted Again...Yeahhhhh... I Think !!!!!

Dr Fill put 0.2 mls back into my band, which means I have no idea how much is in there at the moment, not since I started playing yoyo with the fills.

I had a good day the day I had the fill, I actually didn't feel any difference (which isn't unusual for me, some times it has taken 2 weeks to make any difference) but I woke up the next day and felt it straight away. I have been having a small bowl of cereal each morning and some mornings could have definitely had more but didn't. But 2 mouthfuls into it and I knew if I had anymore I would vomit.

I can still tolerate crackers, cruskits and really chewed up ham and chicken, but only a mouthful or 2. Tonight we went with friends for Chinese and I had a large bowl of chicken and sweet corn soup and one mouthful of satay chicken and I had eaten too much... I really enjoyed it, but boy I was uncomfortable.

The other huge difference it has made is my drinking of fluids, where I could drink about 10 min after a meal I am now back to 30-45 min after or It all comes back up. I am working hard on being good so I don't vomit and cause swelling again... trying to do the relearning again.

I am frustrated because the damn useless Aldi scales' batteries are flat again so I haven't been able to weight myself. Not that that is a bad thing..... I think I will wait till after Xmas and get batteries when I go back to work. Hopefully by then the scales will have started to move again.

Merry Xmas Possums....

Luv Tarn xxx

Merry Xmas Everybody

It's the silly season again , where we spend too much, eat too much and drink too much. I have definitely done all three. My weight is pissing me off. My restriction still isn't right, I can and do eat almost anything. I have another appointment tomorrow with Dr Fill, but part of me doesn't want to be too restricted over xmas. The other half doesn't dare want to not be restricted over xmas.... so what do you do?

I have gained a kilo in a month, and in the last 2 weeks have been from party to BBQ constantly, and although I haven't been too stupid, it all adds up. Especially when you haven't been having party food and alcohol very often for the last 7 months.

Above is a photo of me taken last weekend at my work xmas do. As usual I was being a clown but having a great time. I feel great and am getting lots of comments, but gee as usual we are the hardest to please I suppose. I just want to be thinner.....

I also want to be committed to a food regime and a exercise plan. I have not exercised in ages, I know that that is what is hindering my progress but I can't seem to find the motivation. Even the promise of looking better in swimmers hasn't done it for me.

Ok I am not about to use the New Years Resolution bullshit thing... I am staying away from false promises this year. I am grateful to be lighter than last New Years and aim to be lighter still by next. I have set myself a goal of another 15 kg by my birthday in April this will make me 85kg and I will reassess again then.....

Merry Christmas Everybody

Enjoy !!!!!

Love Tarn xxxx